Hello happy weekend. I missed posting my weekly moment yesterday as I was so under the weather with a heavy achy cold and I was also busy looking after cuddly Flynn who has an ear infection as a result of his cold. So, I thought I’d jump on here today and share. Daddy is occupying the boys outside and I’m resting up with a cup of tea. It’s been a long miserable week here. Flynn’s been so sick this week, but so sweet at the same time. He has the calmest, sweetest, most caring nature for a little boy. I’ve enjoyed some one on one time with him which doesn’t happen very often. It’s been so nice to just enjoy and listen to him. And I’ve enjoyed even more cuddles, smooches, and sweet kisses from him too which I just love and get loads of anyway. So spoilt with love in this home! I think this photo above was taken early Thursday morning after his dose of morning Panadol and antibiotics. So he had some energy and pain relief for about an hour. He was playing dress-ups; handbag complete with keys and talking phone, red floppy hat with bunny ears on top, don’t you just love it! Once he was all dressed up he came over and kissed me on the lips, gave me a “cuggle” and waved saying “bye-bye Mama” and off he’d go walking up to the front door and back, when he’d then pick out another change of outfit and repeat the fun.
It’s been both lovely and frustrating this week. I’ve enjoyed precious one on one time with Flynn and a slower pace to the week. But, at the same time I’ve lost all the time I’d planned to paint and draw this week. Last week I spent time in between my reading and writing cleaning up my little studio a bit which I share with our big fat plotter and also the fax and small A4 printer. So this week I was actually looking forward to getting in there and creating. However, the whole home, family and life, work balance was out of kilter again and my creative time disappeared to make way for caring for sick children. Don’t get me wrong, I would never complain about nurturing and looking after my children, but the thing I find tricky whilst being a mum, a house wife and trying to work is that no matter how hard I work towards routine and prioritizing my time to allow everything to flourish, it just never seems to happen this way. I know this is the main issue all of us working mum’s struggle with. That we can never completely be comfortable in knowing that our time allocations will definitely be fulfilled and met. After being a highly organized, efficient, reliable, and always there for everyone person, friend, wife and employee prior to kids, this does take a long, long time to get used to. Your time is no longer your own or reliable time. This becomes even trickier when working for yourself and not someone else as there is no sick pay, holiday pay or regular fortnightly payments. To get paid the work has to be completed. So for me when I have to allocate my working time to something else it’s always the creative time that goes first. But, essentially it’s this creating that results in income for me and my little business. Somehow I have to work on time for creating more.
And so everything I do takes not twice as long, but three times as long as it really should. I also often feel scatty and distracted mainly because I’ve got a million and one things flying around my head at any one time. I forget to call people back, I don’t get to catch up with friends nearly as often as I’d like to, and my artwork sits around for months before it reaches completion. Funnily enough this piece above has been completed since before Christmas but it’s yet to make it online to my Etsy store. I managed to get prints of my completed paintings up but my beautiful illustrations are still not available for sale. It’s these little things that bug me. I have so much I want to do, but physically can’t do it all these days in the time frames I’d prefer.
Anyway back to the studio project,…I found a piece of MDF lying around in the carport last week so I’ve temporarily placed this on top of a second hand cot we were using in our bedroom and this has become a nice large layout and working space. Directly in front of where this desk is, was where the plotter was previously. So it was directly left of the door and as the room is only about 2m deep it was really cramped and I couldn’t stand back from my work to gain any perspective. It’s still not a great set up and I really need to move the plotter elsewhere out of this room. I also plan to use this wall next to the door to actually hang a canvas on and paint from. I want to paint some larger canvases and have been asked to produce some larger work, but I’ve been limited with space to produce it in. Working on the wall itself would be perfect. I still have a challenge ahead of me convincing Michael that this room is a studio and therefore if there’s paint on the walls and floors it doesn’t matter and years down the track it can all be re-painted and we plan to replace the flooring through out our home anyway. But, he’s not on the same page just yet. The next stage of my studio clean-out is to move all of the old work files and drawing packages off the shelving above my little desk and into the laundry cupboards or rear storage at the back of our house, so that I can bring all my art and sketch books out and put up my picture frames and inspiration here. I really want to make this space my own little creative haven and I need to clear it out of all the mess, other distractions and space wasters first.
Some cheeky fun inspiration arrived on my doorstep yesterday which was a lovely end to a dreary old week here. Earlier this year I discovered the gorgeous, colourful, childlike fantasy artwork of Mindy Lacefield of Tims Sally. I had lost myself for hours enjoying browsing through her gorgeous website and blog a few weeks back and noticed she was launching her own online workshop Paint Your Story, and also had produced her own zine.
I fell in love with the imagery and freedom of colour and expression that her work expressed and just wanted to read a little more about her work and process so I purchased a treat for myself and bought her Paint Your Story Zine which is just delightful. I was really excited to see the package and also the little note she popped inside with a little card about her online workshop and a little print, such a sweet touch and to me always shows a generous spirit at heart. You can view a great little clip of Mindy here too which gives more of an insight into her as an Artist.
It’s great to also see what other artists are doing and how they are getting their work out into the world but also sharing their wonderful, individual stories. I believe we each have our own unique message to share with the world and to inspire other souls with to encourage love and happiness into their hearts and lives of all.
I also have some other news to share with you today…sorry this has turned into a lengthy blog today. I was featured by Beth Nicholls on her website Do What You Love earlier this week, in the section called Shared Stories. “*Shared Stories* is a weekly series of guest posts sharing the stories of people determined to do what they love. Some stories talk of triumph, others despair. They all involve bravery, belief, courage and hope. They are real stories about real people chasing their dreams, and making choices and sacrifices which allow them to do what they love, for life. Every Monday the Do What You Love blog becomes a space for sharing those stories. It takes courage to share, and I hope you will read them, relate to them, be inspired by them, and leave a comment about them.”
You can read my little shared story over here. I hope this inspires you all to trust in where your heart and intuition is taking you. I used to be so scared of saying I’m now working as an artist. I worried what people would think and about judgement. Doing little things like this make those steps forward into being and believing in yourself so much easier. Writing and sharing this story wasn’t easy but it has given me strength, courage and a deeper understanding of who I am and where I am going in my life. You know I think when we reach the point of embracing our hearts and our intuitive whispers, this is where the magic happens. And this is when we can in turn inspire others to follow their dreams and passions and live life authentically with freedom, inspiration and joy.
Wishing you a wonderful weekend filled with little nudges to push you that small step further ahead towards reaching that point of self belief and freedom to enjoy those dreams you aspire to. You can do it you know (o”